Near Death Experience

Similiar to that of most healers, my start into this world was not the blissful experience I had initially signed up for. While still in my mother’s womb I had a near death experience. My siblings died and I wanted to leave this world with them before even entering it. My birth to me felt like a burial. In hindsight it therefore makes sense that the dead choose me as a channel. Death has been my guide since beginning of time.

When my mother died in 2008 I consulted a medium for the first time to help me with my mother still following me around. The medium told me that my mother had tried to have an abortion with me and still felt guilty for it. At the time I didn't trust it fully. Little did I know that I was to become a medium myself only 14 years later.

Failing the System

My wish to make the world a better place brought me to teaching first. Next to the transgenerational abuse that happened in my own family, it was through my former teachers and neighbours that I experienced (sexual) abuse. As a professional teacher I tried my best not to abuse my power in any way, but instead to empower my students. One student once said to me: "You are not a teacher, you are a mediator." I felt very seen.

While suddenly being initiated into my shamanic role, the energy of angst and control around the world became increasingly suffocating to me. At the end of the COVID wave in 2022 - a date that I had seen in visions many years before - I (was) officially retired from teaching  after being diagnosed with anxiety disorder and chronic depression. Ironically, the times I felt safe and comfortable was when I taught in prison – the respect, gratitude and brotherhood I felt from the inmates was priceless. Not being able to transform the system from within did feel like a failure at first.

Hosting Erotic Energy

The transformation that testosterone brought onto me as a sexual-spiritual being and the embodied access to the field of manfinally lead me to get trained as sexological bodyworker. Through sexological bodywork I learned how to create safety and most of all freedom in my sex life for the first time ever.

Through tantric teachings with ISTA I reconnected not only with my past lives as temple host:ess, but first of all re-found self-confidence in expressing my dark masculine and feminine in a more healthy and safe enough way. Visions I received during those post Covid times called me to start hosting my own version of tantric temples called Temple of 3 in Berlin.

It was in 2024 when living on Lesvos Island that I received a lot of insights on how to move beyond collective sexuality towards connected sexuality as a way to save the world from experiencing another WWII-phenomenon. While spending an isolated winter on the island, I transmitted all insights into what then became the Erect Your Self Online Journey.

Serving All Souls - from Victims to Victimizers

When living at ZEGG - a conscious community set on a former SS training near Berlin ground I was visited by dead souls more vividly than ever before. This is why in 2022 I decided to also professionally train as a channeling medium and energy healer to officially (very German :)) re-learn how to communicate and connect with dead souls and other star beings on terms that were healthy for me.

During the re-training I quickly realised that souls would chose my field to deliver their messages before leaving for another dimension. I basically function as a soul hardware on which all souls are stored. Part of my job is to open portals to the inner earth and assist the dead in their transitions. Whereas I had been overwhelmed so many years of my life, I finally feel grateful and honoured to serve in that way - even if it can be uncomfortable.