Journal

In 2024 while meditating on the future of sexuality my Self transmitted the term "connected sexuality" for the first time. During the meditation Adolf Hitler came in - believe it or not. He told me about his sexual abuse by his mother, his tyrannical father, and the self-hatred he suffered from due to his highly suppressed sexual energy throughout his life. Hitler's soul delivered two major messages: In order to gain freedom and peace on a wordly level we need to unify the inner mother and father energies. And to get there our inner child needs to hop onto the inner father's shoulders. This is how we can save the world. Any questions? :)

Of course there are other theories out there how to save this world - if we assume it needs saving at all. However, my job is to go to the root of the issues that block us from embodying our Urlove - our organic Self-Love. And the root of collective self-abuse is - to break it down - the root chakra. This is also where our sexual organs and genitals are physically placed - controversial to the theory that they are seated in our sexual chakra. I can't but wonder if this misconception is all part of the collective self-abuse. The main focus of the first part of this journey is therefore to let our genitals be our allies. In German the word allies can be translated as "connectors": Verbündete. And in reference to the spiritual and sexual war times we live in, our genitals are here to serve us in establishing inner peace and freedom.

In a reading I was shown the dimensions of sexual abuse: everyone has experienced sexual abuse on this earth. Sexual abuse is the norm. Sexual abuse is archetypal. When we are intimate with someone, all the energies connected to collective sexual abuse are coming in with you. And we open up our energies to each other - most of time 100% unaware. If you are highly sensitive and empathic, you feel how your energy changes immediatly with the presence of the other person and vice versa. When does an energy exchange become abusive? And if so who is responsable? Who is the victim, who is the victimizer and who is supposed to protect you and keep you safe, and from what?

We all have the capacity to connect to dimensions of our Self that are beyond the collective third dimension and that are free from self-abuse. It's a matter of constant conscious practice, but it is especially challenging when we are sexual with someone. Against all other beliefs, I dare to say that we cannot not be sexual. We cannot shut down our sexual energy, because that would mean we are dead. The sad fact here: that's of course what lots of us do - I also did - and then end up depressed and caught up in this false matrix where hating our Selves is natural.

I used to give myself labels such as sex or love addict. The truth is that it is very challenging for me to be with people authentically, but when I am intimate with someone and my sexual energy consciously emerges with someone else's I feel connected in the most authentic way. It is my heaven on earth. As in that moment I am sharing my self-love with another being and we are sending it out into the world. I strongly feel that we can live our heaven on earth by being sexually connected again - in ways that are still to be explored by you. My wish is that the  - now called - Erect Your Self journey inspires you to explore your own individual way of loving your Self and sharing this love with the world.